A Broken Heart ??

After much fatigue and many trips to the doctor, yesterday I found out that I have a heart murmur.  Coupled with my fatigue, dizziness and insomnia; it seems like it might be pretty serious.  I have an echocardiogram scheduled for Monday.  I am not sure if it’s the exhaustion or the diagnosis. . .but I want to crawl under the covers and avoid life for a while.  I am scared and . . . well, I guess scared pretty well covers it.

I’m sad and right now I really miss my daddy.  This is one of those things that I would have wanted to protect him from knowing. . .but wouldn’t have been able to control myself and would have told him.  He would have some really comforting (and funny!) words for me.  Now, don’t get me wrong.  I have a stunning supporting cast and they have all been ubber supportive . . . but sometimes it would be nice to be my daddy’s helpless 5 year old and let him make it better.

I know that God is my daddy too and that he is watching after me.  I know that this is all part of His plan and that there is some point to what happens on this earth every day.  I just struggle with . . . well, being human.

Okay, I’ll try to stop having my pity party now.

Your prayers are appreciated,

Jules

Other People’s Words (aka Top Ten Quotes)

Life has been a bit crazy lately.  Between school, work & life. . .I haven’t found the downtime to blog.  So, I thought I’d share some of my favorite wise words from others.

Irish Fest

“Happiness is different from pleasure. Happiness has something to do with struggling, enduring, and accomplishing.” unknown

“Those who can laugh without cause have either found the true meaning of happiness or have gone stark raving mad.” Norm Papernick

“In order that people may be happy in their work, these three things are needed: they must be fit for it; they must not do too much of it; and they must have a sense of success in it.” John Ruskin

“Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.” Howard Thurman

“To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.” unknown

“Look at life through the windshield, not the rear-view mirror” Byrd Baggett

“Magnetism is one of the Six Fundamental Forces of the Universe, with the other five being Gravity, Duct Tape, Whining, Remote Control, and The Force That Pulls Dogs Toward The Groins Of Strangers.” Dave Barry

“Oh, you hate your job? Why didn’t you say so? There’s a support group for that. It’s called EVERYBODY, and they meet at the bar.” Drew Carey

“A wise woman puts a grain of sugar into everything she says to a man, and takes a grain of salt with everything he says to her.” Helen Rowland

“It is not good for all our wishes to be filled; through sickness we recognize the value of health; through evil, the value of good; through hunger, the value of food; through exertion, the value of rest.” ~Dorothy Canfield Fisher

And as a bonus, ripped straight from my friend Will’s Facebook : “I pack my trunk, embrace my friends, embark on the sea, and at last wake up in Naples, and there beside me is the Stern Fact, the Sad Self, unrelenting, identical, that I fled from.” -Ralph Waldo Emerson

Blessed week ladies & gentlemen,

Jules